I was sitting in Tim Horton's having a coffee yesterday, while eating an old fashioned doughnut. I couldn't wait for my copy of "The power of now" to arrive, so I printed off the first chapter to read.
I got to the part near the beginning where Tolle described his first inner realization:
"I was awakened by the chirping of a bird outside the window. I had
never heard such a sound before. My eyes were still closed, and I saw
the image of a precious diamond. Yes, if a diamond could make a sound,
this is what it would be like. I opened my eyes. The first light of
dawn was filtering through the curtains. Without
any thought, I felt, I knew, that there is infinitely more to light
than we realize. That soft luminosity filtering through the curtains
was love itself. Tears came into my eyes. I got up and walked around
the room. I recognized the room, and yet I knew that I had never truly
seen it before. Everything was fresh and pristine, as if it had just
come into existence. I picked up things, a pencil, an empty bottle,
marveling at the beauty and aliveness of it all.
I was amazed. I kept reading, while finishing my coffee.
As soon as I was done, I left to go walk down to the grocery store, and that’s when it happened. This overwhelming feeling of peace and harmony swept over me. I felt like I was hit with a wave of joy. I felt as though I had finally “gotten it".
I don't really quite know how to explain it; other then to say it was the most intense energetic feeling my conscious mind has ever experienced, and the calmest, most serene feeling my soul has ever known.
Everything I did afterward seemed different. My mind was finally switched off. I could see everyone and everything as an extension of myself. I was everything.
I would like to say that this was a really crazy and profound experience, but truthfully, it wasn't. It was in fact better then that.
The shift of consciousness that I experienced was just so simple, and peaceful. My whole demeanor had changed. The pace at which I walked was slower. I smiled more, and interestingly enough, more people smiled at me.
I got into the grocery store, and had to just stop, shut my eyes, and take in a REALLY deep breath. It was a little overwhelming at first, but felt so nice.
I started my journey around the store, noticing the fruits, the veggies, and all their wonderful smells, and colours. I walked with a slow pace, hands folded in front of each other. Almost like a priest or minister at mass. It just felt SO nice.
I had a memory of a time when Mel and I were sleeping together. The cat kept meowing, and wouldn’t stop. Finally Mel got up 1/2 asleep. At first I heard nothing, then the cat food dish being filled. Mel grumbled something, and came back to bed. That thought made me laugh out loud. RIGHT in the middle of the store! It was funny to think about that time, and how it made me chuckle.
I continued walking through the store, finding little things here, and enjoying a few simple moments there. I had finally gathered all of my purchases, and made my way to the cash. The cashier seemed cheery, and bright. She welcomed me with a “Hello… you look like you’re having a nice night…” I was just BEAMING. I paid for my purchases, and asked to have everything delivered.
I left the store, feeling very good, with a new found sense of grounding and serenity. I took in another deep cold breath, and started my walk home. I waited patiently for the OC Transpo bus. It came shortly after, and I got on, greeting the driver with a warm hello.
The driver and I spoke the whole way home... (Something I NEVER do... as "those people" "Annoyed" me before). We joked about passengers, and shared stories of things that had happened throughout his day. He thanked me for our chat, and I got off the bus. I smiled a HUGE smile, and walked home.
As soon as I got in the door, I put on my jammies, and got the kettle on for tea… Just as I was about to settle in, the phone rang... the groceries were there. It just seemed as though everything was ready, and in sync. I put my things away in the kitchen, enjoyed my tea, and had the most peaceful, and enjoyable rest I’ve had in years.
Love and light,