Good morning. I haven't updated this in a while, as I've been VERY busy this holiday season, visiting the folks, and hanging with my daughter. The holidays are now over however, and it's time to get back to reality.
The break was good, and I really enjoyed my time with family, and friends... but I couldn't seem to shake this nagging feeling all throughout the week. This feeling that something was missing, or wasn't right.
One thing in particular that I noticed is that I REALLY go back to old patterns, and habits when I'm not giving myself the time and care that I need.. and THAT is where I've been going wrong.
I usually meditate every morning, then start the day off with a bit of reflection. Lately however, I've let that slip to the wayside. I was given a gentle reminder this morning by a GOOD friend that I was being a bit much, and that I should perhaps get back to the present.
The funny thing is that I was SO caught up in my patterns, that I actually vocalized my displeasure with hearing such a notion, and was just about to argue back, but decided to go for a coffee instead.
Upon my return, I saw the error of my ways, and realized what had happened. It wasn't really a matter of her being right, and me being wrong, but more of an issue with me not being in the present moment, and not appreciating and respecting myself enough.
I AM human, and I AM going to make mistakes. This is to be expected. It's nice that my friend allows me the freedom to make these mistakes, without judgment, and with a lot of patience.
Mistakes are our greatest teachers, and the take home lesson is this:
"Take care of yourself no matter what. You are no good to others, if you are no good to yourself"
With that... I leave you with a wonderful chakra clearing meditation that helped shake the "funk" out of my head.
Namaste... love and light,